Straight from my notes app

Sometimes I feel like I hold too much too many thoughts too many experiences I wish there was someone whose only purpose was to cater to me who would only listen to me talk for hours and would just allow me to pour into them all that is mine so I could feel completely empty to experience everyday like a starving animal almost so it would hurt to discover so much to feel the sun on my skin as a holy gift to bestow all and carry throw out the world as a erhereal force

Nights like that I turn to god and make him the legal guardian of all my being so I can just be a vessel

(This was written on the bus to my uni at 8:00 am)